Emerging

I’ve been wandering.
I’ve been wondering, I’ve been floundering, seeking something nourishing. I’ve been buried in a dark ground that I made cozy for myself, though lonely with myself, it’s been a winter.

I know, it’s summer now! And before that came spring, but I’m talking about the winter of my soul. That was heavy and long. I think I am only re-emerging now, in the summer sun with long days to prove to me that light comes back.

Sounds dramatic?
Yes, it is.
I am. I have been.

I’m weary from the details and am determined to stop repeating them, with the view that if I keep telling the same story I keep hearing it; if I keep hearing the same story I keep believing it.

So, onwards.
Suffice it to say, it’s been a slog of a winter and I fell off one course and onto a new one. I’ve been lost, untethered, and lacking the fervour it takes to self motivate and rise up from my own ashes.

Until now.

What’s going to happen??!?!?!?!?!?!!
I don’t know but I finally feel excited again, eager to work and play and create. I have vigour within me, I’ve been writing some new songs, I have projects stewing over a hidden hearth that I built from what crumbled.

Totally still sounds dramatic, totally still is.
But I’m happy that there’s joy now, most of the days anyway.

Thanks for your support, however you gave it.
I look forward to making work again, publicly now, as opposed to the work it took to make it through the winter. Summer is a shiny time for me, on my bike to the lake in the warmth. I am absorbing some sun beams, they are filling up my tank.

I hope summer is good for you, wherever you be.
xo
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