‘let yourself be silently drawn by the stronger pull of what you really love’
rumi
Ok, Rumi
I think you are wise
I try to listen to you, most of the time
What pulls me now are the tides
what pulls me are her kisses, our breath syncing as it falls to rise
I have been following now my whims awhile
sitting in front of a window, thinking about connection and purpose and love and gods
questions that lead to more questions
paradox
angst all existential
I have been following myself into unlit places
looking for light but loving the darkness
all winter long i’ve been working on an epic project
something about catholicism from a lapsed catholic’s point of view
but, more than that, too
something about faith in general
and connection in particular
i’m writing a show
it will be in a church
but it’s not about god
maybe, by proxy, a bit
but god’s not the right word
it rarely is
words, in fact, rarely say it
which is why i’ve been struggling
which is why i’ve been agonizing over language and futility and how mystery is not to solved
and not to be explained
try as i may
funny, that.
Rumi, I can’t tell what pulls me
only that something does
only that i follow it, onto dance floors, into lakes, into lingering kisses
tears in the afternoon when overwhelmed by sadness
I follow it because intuition beckons me
delicious fingers
promising no answers
but ecstasy
and the kind of sorrow i can only call gorgeous
As a reward for all this – I give those to myself, since this is my life and I am working for poetry – I’m taking a vacation
what I really love is love
and being in it
and giving it, without restriction
to celebrate this, I am flying over the ocean
to sit beside the sea beside my love, just her and me
and also strangers
and space and silence
and the kind of questions that are surely to arise
with time on my hands, new sights for my eyes
When I come back, maybe I will update this blog more
maybe I will get ‘productive’
web savvy and all of that
There are projects on the go and i am going to walk away from them, for almost a month
poems are sure to come
but mostly they will be fragments
for gods and love
In october the How to be Alone book comes out
Illustrated by Andrea Dorfman (and the pictures look so good!) and published by Harper Collins
Then, I will disappear for a month with Andrea behind a camera for our next project.
Details soon but I will tell you now that i am excited!
Like, reeeeeaaaaallllly excited.
And nervous
I will need reassurance and green vegetables
All the while, I will be planning this show, set in a church, only kind of about god.
I hope you, reader, are having a swell summer
I hope you are eating all the delicious produce and putting your body in bodies of water.
my psychic told me to get someone to do my website
so, soon I will do that and then I will post pictures adn other things people like to see
for now, please know I there are things coming down pipes, spurred on by hours of digging and thinking and also some tears and also a lot of love
until soon
xo
td
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